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Day 378….how disgusting….a beard on a woman

Most of the reactions to the tv report, “Faszination Leben”, were friendly, supporting, encouraging and positive. Some reacted with disgust and some other expressions. One of  them even felt harassed by my appearance.

The problem for them is that this woman has a beard. If she was a man – no one would have taken notice of the beard…..But it is not acceptable that a woman has a beard. And above all she even lets people do a film about her and showing it on TV!!

What thoughts would the same people have, if under my picture would be written this is a man? Would they still feel disgusted? Is it the way the beard has grown? Does it need some styling? ! Someone wrote my beard is matted..

Why do they react so extreme? Is it the education, society, media?

It is amazing what reactions such a few innocent hairs on the “wrong spot” can cause! On other parts of the body people  are longing for them if they are not there…

Seeing this from a distance I find it quite amusing. Such a lot of fear is being caused by bodyhair!? How dangerous are these hairs?!

Why do people like it more to be pierced or having a tatoo, then their own bodyhair?!

Seeing a fly the other day in my room, I understood why I used to kill it: because I was afraid. I was afraid it could fly into my face and tickle me, that it would leave its shit on the lamp and bring germs onto my food, which might cause illness….etc…. My fear was bigger than this little animal. To really look at the fear, and to ask yourself is it true  what I believe, can open up the eyes and the heart and suddenly the fear has gone.

What are you fighting against just out of fear?!

Latest Video

Tonight there was another little report about me on german TV in RTL. You can watch it online for the next few days on  Focus TV . The other videos that had been on youtube have been closed and are not available for now.

Women with beards – calendar 1997/2000

A dutch webpage wrote something about me, yesterday.

They give a link in the text which leads to a dutch page Vrouwen met Baarden (women with beards).

On that page you can see the calendar of 1997 with  “12 hairy babes”….I did read about it some time ago. But all these beards are just fake! No real bearded women!  On this page you can download each month. On the home page you can click  on the names of the women and read little made-up stories about them.

Day 369

carre-d-etoiles-telescopeInhabitat. com is a wonderful webpage with great design ideas. Really fascinating. If you like intersting and beautiful things, you will like this page. If this link works yo will come to see a little house…wonderful…I would love to live there ….It is called Carre Etoile.

Day 368

Shoppinggalerie an der Frauenkirche DresdenNot really something to tell. I went to town, bought some fabric for sewing the muffeteers. They have pritty fabric there in Karstadt. The saleswomen were really friendly. In the street people were staring as usual. On the traffic lights, a woman in the car, had popping out her eyes when she saw me!

The air was stuffy and hot. When I came back home I was tired and did not yet start sewing.

Again I passed the Frauenkirche. And this time they were just closing for a rehearsal…..and another time I was not able to see the church from the inside!  On the way to the church, I passed this guy on the picture. He has a nice beard. He is an original of a man!

Women with mustaches

Found a page I did not know yet. With pictures of women with mustaches here.

367. Tag Would you make out with this woman?

Dame!? ohne Arme!!I thought that I might stop writing this diary, but as you can see, I am still writing. And right now, I have the luxury to live in a flat with connection to the internet.

Tonight I found a page, where someone asks: Would you make out with this woman? Showing pictures of me!

Here is the link to the page: where you can read the answers or put your own answers! Up to now, most people think I am a man, and others just followed the mainstream, that dating a woman with beard is not possible…..

Again and again, people asked me, if I had a boyfriend or if I would live with someone. I am living alone for quite some years now.  And I like it, as I wanted to spend time with myself. Seeing the difficulties other people have,  living in a relationship, I was happy to be alone. It is special to be with oneself. And I think it is the basic thing to be able to BE with yourself to really BE with someone else. The other person should enrich the life and be able to be alone. What I wish for, is a person, no matter what sex, to be a company to go throu life. Someone I can do things together and laugh… where I can feel a connection, feel inspired, and exited to be together and vice versa. Where it is fun to be together and where also everyone is able to be alone for himself. As much closeness, as possible and as much distance as necessary in a balancerfd way. A respectful being together supporting each other. Perhaps it needs some distance to stay alert and wake to treat one another in a respectful manner. Everyone has his needs of closeness and distance to be in contact with oneself.

And about the person, that I would like to walk together for a while, I think the beard would not be a hindrance. And until we meet, I will enjoy to be with myself and the world…

There are so many ideas about what is “normal”. There is the separation in men and women. And the other one is that you should have a relation with the opposite sex. NORMAL? Why? Because most of mankind is behaving like this!?

There is so much more! For example, as we know by now, there are not only men and women. There are quite some more forms ……

And there is not only the relation between men and women. There can be different ways of being in a relation. And  as soon, as the limitations in the mind are torn away, so many more ways of living are possible…

Day 366 – Birthday of the beard! One year old

Frau mit Bart 04. August 2009Today the beard got one year old! Happy Birthday! Birthday cake and a candle?! Would be nice to make a party today!

My birthday, some time ago, was not important to me,….but this birthday, I feel is important to me. Well it is the first one and something special to have the beard now for one year!

Some did ask me: Now after one year, will you shave again and get rid of the beard? Wasn´t it meant to be an experiment for one year?

NO. After all that I realized in this one year, it would be paradox to shave or plug out the hair again.  – It would be back to normal life! To adapt, as usual. How else do you want to find a job!

I am still thinking about whether I should make it a bit shorter or not. ….Something inside of me doesn´t want to cut. And then I hear the thought: This looks quite wild. Shorter is more beautiful. Beautiful? What ideal of beauty? Interesting thinking about this: Would I trim the beard to please me? Or would I only do it to please the others?

The waggish side of me wants to have a wild beard. The wild woman wants to express and to come out! She wants to do funny crazy things. Wants to show and play with the way she looks! Living the wild side is  fun, and gives a feeling of being alive! Remember the 10 points of Patch Adams?

  1. Turn off your TV and become interesting. Perform yourself.
  2. Consider being silly in public. Sing out loud. Wear funny stuff. (these are just 2 out of 10 points that he prescribes)

To shave the beard, would just be to have my peace and to adapt and try to please the ideal of beauty, that the mass is adapting to. I would cut it out of fear to be rejected. And then I would be there, where I started when I was plucking out the hair on my chin.

I like myself with the beard. It feels consistent.

About this subject I had been thinking a lot during this one year. If I want to have my peace, I withdraw myself from the people. This I already did without the beard. It is not necessary to cut the beard to be in peace. The past two weeks, I did withdraw. First I did not understand why, and then I realized that I had worked too much and had gone over my limits. In these times I need to withdraw to refill the bateries with or without having a beard.  – This I wrote, because some people think the beard makes my live so hard, that I should cut it. But the beard is a friend that makes me understand so many things about life and myself.

Day 366 Dresden

Haustür Dresden NeustadtYesterday I went around in the Neustadt of Dresden. My mood was much better. In two shops the saleswomen asked me about my beard. Both wanted to know: How come I have a beard? And I explained to them as far as I know it is kind of inherited, as the women in the oriental countries, as the turkish, iranian and other are more hairy and have beards, that they usually trim so you won´t notice. And as I am half iranian, this might be an inheritage. The other thing is that being overweighted can make the hair grow more easily, as this also has an influence on the hormons. But what about Jennifer Miller? She is a clown in New York, has a much more developed beard than me and is slim!! And what about women with much more overweight than me, that do not get a beard? I guess scientists can investigate more on this field. And perhaps it is “normal” that 30 % of the women would have a beard, if they wouldn´t fight against it, because men want it that way!! And the women want to attract the men!

Neustadt Dresden August 2009One of them told me that it is really crazy by now that men and women are shaving their whole body in order to be hairless, and that they have to make appointments for sex…..so not to have scratching hair on their body that just started growing again!

I realize that a woman with a beard looks to some people male and people say that she wants to be male. But what about men that are shaving in the face or the whole body? Does anyone say they want to be female? Or that they look female without bodyhair? !

pulswärmer August 2009 Since some days I started sewing again. I was really longing to! I am sewing these muffetees for the winter. They are made out of woolen felt material. Hoping to make some money for my living or to finally be able to buy the van, to live in!

To work with the colors and the material is great and feels good. Something to touch and a good contrast to writing.

Day 361 – Go your own way!

zwischen den ZähnenSome weeks ago, I had a talk with a man. The subject was bodyhair. He said, that he doesn´t like to have hair between the teeth when he kisses her. I thought he was talking about the beard of a woman ….and then I realized that he was talking about shaving the pubic hair.

In Germany many newspapers had written about this subject, this summer. And it is “normal now”  to shave all the body and facial hair.

Everybody shall be free to do what he wants.

But what I do not like, is that it is becoming a “must”.  A fashion. Someone told me about women working in housing groups for young girls, that they would tell the 12 year old girls to shave off their pubes, as this was not ok to have hair on the body, under the armpits or in the face!!. – I think this can make young girls feel bewildered. They might understand it in a way as: My body is not ok as it is. I am not ok the way I am….I won´t find a boyfriend, if I don´t shave and so on…

Is this really necessary?!

A magazine for young people in Germany, called BRAVO, also tells the kids to shave.

I would find it better to support young people to accept and love themselves the way they are. And to support them to feel ok with the bodies they have.

Scaring and bewildering young people brings a lot of money to some people.

A scarred and bewildered person, that feels not selfashure, will do anything just to be “in” to be loved.

Wild wild wildAll societies and groups have their ideal of beauty. I think it is important to be alert and wake and to see what you are doing and why. To be awake. And to take your own decision. And not following something a group or society tells you to do, in order to be loved and accepted.

Don´t follow the mass. Have the courage to go our own way.

Take responsability for your own life.


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