The photographer Juan Hein – The visit – Video

While I was staying in Copenhagen with the circus, some months ago, I met the photographer Juan Hein. We did spend the afternoon walking around the lake in Christiania. There Juan Hein made some photos of me with the polaroidcamera.

Impossible a young enterprise is now again producing the polaroidfilm! So it was possible to make photos with one of their films which is in sepia.

The five photos taken by Juan Hein, that day were exhibited on 18th of september 2010, in Spark Gallery in Copenhagen.

He made a little film about the exhibition. Here it is:


Vivian Wheeler meets her lost son!

Just now I found an article that was released some days ago about Vivian Wheeler, the bearded Woman who holds the worldrecord of having the longest beard for women, now 62 years old, that she found her son who had been adopted, because the father took him away from her in 1977! HERE is the link to the article.

And here is a little movie to be seen.

Vivian Wheeler was born on august 9th in 1948 inAlton Illinois. Today she is living in Bakersfield, USA. When she was born she was born with both male and female organs. They were just seperated by a skin, as in siamese twins. They say she is a hermaphrodite. As the father already had two sons the decision was to take away the male organs and to have a daughter. Later Vivian Wheeler gave birth to a daughter and to a son. The son was taken away by the father and she was desperately seeking for her child for more than 30 years. Now he found her! And she is very happy.

Vivian Wheeler worked in different sideshows as with Ringling  Bros and Barnum and Baileys. More information about Vivian Wheeler can be found in the book of Marc Hartzman American Sideshow. And perhaps other books I do not know yet.

Day 774 From Italy to Austria

In Italy there was another event with Circo Paniko in Borselli on the 17th and 18th of September. But me I got sick with a heavy caugh and the air was too bad for my lungs. I went to the doctor, in the night and he wrote me a prescription with antibiotika and painkillers and acetylcastein and claritromycina and caughing liquid too manydifferent products….Usually I do not take these things but this time I felt too bad and I took some of the things…not all…because it was really too much! And after two days I felt better already.

In Italy it is the second time that I have problems with the lungs. Another year I stayed for several month at the Gardalake in Tignale and around the coastline of the lake for kilometers the pinetrees are full with caterpillars PROZESSIONSRAUPEN. It is a kind of caterpillars with long hair, that are walking in a chaine and build a white nest in the pinetrees. They have long hair that are causing heavy allergies, such as red spots on the skin and asthma, as to mention some. Histamin from the little hair of the caterpillar is causing these reactions and if you are sensitive to Histamin then even more. So I got Asthma from these little creatures. The doctor at the lake told me no this is just an infektion told me to take Antibiotika and Antihistaminika…but it did not disappear. I went to a hospital there they said it is an asthmatik reaction. Did not believe again that it is caused by caterpillars. And even in Germany back in Berlin at the Charitee the doctor did not believe in this.

Sorry the doctors are somtimes so stupid. Just believing what they know. Not open to learn new things and not from the clients!If you surch the internet you find that even forestworkers are told to protect as they easily have contact either by pine or by oaks that both can have this kind of caterpillar.

So Asthma caused some years ago and I thought it is over I do not get it again, but it started again with the bad air in combination with an infection. The air in Italy is not so clean. Too much traffic and exhaustfumes from factories make a mixture that easily has an effect on the lungs. In the pharmacies in Italy you can find much more products and machines for the lungs, than in Germany. Many people, I guess have problems with the lungs in Italy. And the doctors give antibiotika, but do not think that it is all caused by bad air! If they changed the laws and minimize the exhausts than people would have less lung problems.

As soon as I had left Florenz area and was up high in the mountains the caughing had disappeared! A sign it was the air not the infection! And always when I stayed too long in areas with lots of traffic as parkings on the motorway or in towns that were in a lower area the caughing started again. So around Ravenna it was good, but around Bologna the air again was too dirty…..and now in Austria I am in the mountains and feeling so much better.

I had a good time with  the circus and I love the people a lot. But now I will go my own way for a while till I meet them again….because for this year, as far as I know there would not be any possibility to work again with the circus as the season is over. It was a special and great experience for me to have the opportunity to be close to the circus and to work in my hut. They gave me the chance to grow more. And I think I have grown inside a lot the past two months. Thanks a lot to everyone and to Damian who gave me the inspiration for the hut! Love to all of you!

In the beginning there was light – Movie

IN THE BEGINNING THERE WAS LIGHT – AM ANFANG WAR DAS LICHT, this is the titel of the new movie by Mr. Straubinger. Yesterday this movie started to be on in the cinemas in Austria, (in Germany this movie will start the 28th of october 2010) and I am not informed how long it will take until this film is also in english in the cinemas. Today I just was in the mood to go to the cinema. And under all the action movies and the film people like to watch to be drawn into another world…was this film. It was the first day and only about 30 people were watching it with me. I hope that the coming days more and more people will come to see this film, as it is really good and I hope that the filmakers earn a lot to go on making films like this!

More information about this movie on this Webseite sorry in German.

I loved this film I felt myself supported in things that I felt and thought before. I found explanations for experiences I had also made. I think the more people believe in something the more it becomes possible. The morphogenetic field connects all of us, all the conciousness of all the people and so if we all believe in something it will materialise. In books of Rupert Sheldrake you can find more information about the morphogenetic field and in the internet too.

This stuborness of some scientist is really shocking. They are behaving as in times where they still believed that the earth is flat! Were is the interest in real investigation. They found some things and now they stick with them and make a law of it, instead understanding that there is so much more possible and waiting to be discovered!

Changing the point of view, is threatening as the whole world they did build up starts to shake and there is no more the ground that they build up themselves.
If more people would live on light, then it would change the society. Many factories and buisinesses could close. People that do not need to drink or eat! Most of our energy we need to earn money to buy food and drink and if we would not need to do this anymore, than we could be so free! Have so much time for other things!! Great to imagine this. And the nature would also recover!

There are studies that had been made about people not drinking and not eating for many years and the responsable people did not want to publish them. I think people  who have the money and power are not interested in publishing this as it will change their lives. And they love to have money and power.

Well anyway, I wanted to say go and see the movie yourself as soon as you can!! I believe it will change a lot!

Day 765 Florence

Now I am in Florenz together with Circo Paniko. We are in Villa Stozzi in Florenz from the 7th to the 10th of September. From the 3rd to the fifth we had been in Parma: Tutti Matti per Colorno.

Florenz is a town that has a lot of traffic and is not easy to find the way. It took some hours till I arrived at the place of Villa Strozzi.

It is a great place in a park. Beautiful. I am a bit exhausted from travelling and between the last event in Colorno and this one there was not really time to relax. so I feel that I am looking forward to charge my batteries and to have a rest after these days in Florence.

I love a lot to do this job, talking to the people about bearded ladies, or to read from the palm and assist them on their path.

The respond is very positive and I am happy to have this opportunity to build up next to the Circus. Thanks to all the beautiful people from Circo Paniko who give me this opportunity and make it possible, that I can make this experience!!

This morning, when I woke up a group of young children where already waiting in front of my caravan. They wanted to see the woman with the beard. And they said to me that it must be a fake. I said no, they did not want to believe its real and that I am a woman. Then they discussed if my hair on the head would be fake. And one of the boys was convinced my breasts were balloons filled with water!! – Amazing. Are they used that the reality is a fake. Now this what seems fake is real!!

In the end they believed me. And asked further who lives with me in the car and who is driving it. As I said I live alone and it is me who is driving the car, they were even more surprised and the girl said, but it is the men who drive the car not the women!!

Is the education in Italy in these days still like in ancient times, very traditional…? Well a least it seems it is in this family…